It starts to tear me down
Destroyed by what I create
It left the nerve exposed
Feels like a lost cause
It's what reduced me to this
Turned me against myself
It's still a lost cause

I can't keep doing this to myself
But it's the only way to forget who I am

Your disability kept pushing me away
It went beneath what's so real to me
And threw it all away
I underestimated
The lengths that you would have gone
To deny who you are
You threw it all away

I will keep doing this to myself
'cause it's the only way to forget who I am

I never wanted your help
I never needed your help
This failure has to be all mine now
I'll turn my back on myself
If it's my only way out
It can only help me if it hurts