Extract these thoughts from my head withdraw these
feelings from my heart planned answers always followed
with more questions I've seen this landscape before
try not to look but I am drawn if I could only ignore
it you didn't slip through my fingers I just spread
them apart a clove of smoke that starts out strong
and fades away before too long expectations set so
high too far to see with squinting eyes how honorable
were the attempts to reach the goal I could never come
close to cleanse me of this unbearable reality cure
the sickness that's so much a part of me cathedrals
standing tall to demonstrate denial as infection ever
grows the victims only smile the beginning of the end
in the shell of defiance the truth is safely hidden
the definition of reliance a cancer of meager beginnings
the product of its surroundings the destruction of
natural purity a virus foreign to empathy