i dropped all of my lovers.
i stood up and screamed ' I'm in love! '

you gave it to me through the eyes, hatred.
centuries deep and true.
i was wrong, graceless, and sick.
all of the things that i had learned had been wasted.

there was no living creature as foul as i,
and all of my poems were false.
i could feel my soul, dropping down through the mattress.
i had to leap up before it hit the floor.
and I'm so alone.

illumination held out in front of my reaching arms.
the darker things get the better i see.
I'm so alone and so are you,
we all live and die that way.