A compelling or constraining influence, such as a moral force on the mind or will... pressure.
To be undecided or skeptical, to tend to disbelieve and distrust. to regard as unlikely.... that's doubt.
The condition of being insufficient or falling short. decline in strength or effectiveness.... failure.
The instinct to run, to back away, or give up.... to need. want. reach. steal.
The feeling to always want more, and to take more.
The loss of breath at the sight of a car accident... to drive by.
Never being able to feel satisfied, and to reject anyone who tries.

...this is my life.