I will not lay down and just go to sleep, without
Thinking of you, and thinking of me, it's a suicide pain,
But just without taking the pills, as I turn my head
To the side where you were, well I swear I can see
You just like before, and as I clench my hands,
To wake myself up before sleeping.

Am I damned now to pray that I'm somewhere
That I cannot be? And, I'm standing in silence at
Crossroads that I cannot take, and it's taken the
Best part of everything I ever had, and it's out of
My hands, and my hands are on fire, and I will
Be somewhere but not there today...

I catch my breath as I picture your face, every
Smile that you gave me is somehow replaced by
This permanent nightmare, that I've never
Seen met before, and your making me crawl and
Your making me sweat just to break through that
Centre, my bitter regret, it's not leaving me slowly
The faster I run it's behind me...