When I was young I was a quite kid ,
hid my pain by smiling , aww he's so cute look at
the size of him , little did they see the fucked up
s hit that I was hiding in .
Arguing, violence, growing up in a drug environment
.my parent though that they could buy my love with
presents .. how the fuck did i know what crack-cocaine
was at the age of 7 ? now you realise your mistake
, your trying to change ,
sorry guys your 20 years too late,
you did this to me , your the ones to blame .

You ever though about killing yourself ,
slitting your rist or hanging off the end of a belt
, I have fucked up kid but oh well ,
if suicide' s a sin guess I'll be rotting in hell ,
and people always asking finni ,
why you always willing out ,
shut up bitch what you think I go to smile about ?
You think my life's good cause I'm on the telly?
Ever wondered why I'm skinny?
Cause I'm mum was taking tilli
This is the life I live so much pain that i would love
to give; only god can judge me.
.. And them other bitches they can suck my dick (x2)
I told my parents keep a memory of me,
something like a photo cause I think I'll be the first
one to die , well I really hope so ,
this life is driving me insane ,
don't worry mum and dad , when you die i hope you R.I.P
- rest in pain cause all my life I've been lied to
, sometimes I wanna slit some bodies throat sit with
them and watch them die too just so they can feel the
fucking inner pain that i do.
Does anyone every cry themselves to sleep?
I do. You're lucky I aint ended up in prison,
for killing guys or doing fucked up shit like rapping
women. Homicide living my life with a drug addiction,
so much hate in my heart feels like everyone's a fucking
victim. I just wanna be alone with no ones else around
me. Out-cast. No one really understands me.
Ahhhhha, I really love my family,
but this is how i feel sometimes, understand me?
This is the life I live so much pain that i'd love
to give; only god can judge me.
.. And them other bitches they can suck my dick (x2)