If only I could put into words

The way I feel

Telling myself the situation's not real

Lost and sometimes I feel

I have nowhere to go

Because you tell me it's wrong

To let my feelings show

I've Lost My Place To turn

I know I fucked it up

I turned away

One too many times

Suffered from an ego trip

That left me fucking blind

Friends are telling me

The loneliness will go away

But the memories will be there

As long as

The ink in my fingers stays

I choose to stay away

Because I want to keep control

My head is thinking straight

But my heart says explode

The thought of someone else

Is much too much

And friendship means

You're just beyond my touch