I'm so confused

Between what I use and abuse
Can't find the line
So unreal
How I lie and try to deny

The things that I feel
I'll love you and hate you both at the same time
Heal you and hurt you and laugh as you cry
Why I don't know

Right at you right in you
Right through you right past you I go

First it's him then it's her
Can't you see
Then it's me
Then it's us then it's you
Misery, depression, elation all mine
Refine confinement all my design
You and me
We think that we're free

Ugly
Pathetic we cling
You see, you see the real me
You and me

So obscene
Flapping wildly
You see what I mean

Can't see why you do what you do
Keep away
And say what you say