i tried to act as if i cared.
i tried to act as if i didn't want to get out.
i wasn't careful what i asked for and i got it but
i hung on for 21 months. 49 days sitting,
standing, not sleeping and going crazy in a corner.
49 days, my balls turned to brass and i finally won
out. i did 21 months. the 21 strangest months i've
ever lived. i think about all the sick things that
i said, and what i did, and what was done to me and
through it all i grew strong.
made my stand; learned to live. i still live what i learned in 21 months.