starting becomes an adherent

obstacle

when all objections are raised

beforehand,

in the head

knowing what one can and will

say against whatever is being

expressed

because it circles that way, in every

single

direction.

friends are the police I'm the police

we define everything here

and push out what is unacceptable

sometimes only based on (its all the same-- its inside)

fear and you get so used t pushing (we don't see eye to eye- we don't)

things away (realize)

that a good idea becomes (we were wrong)

indistinguishable from a bad one (look inside, you can see it)

so we remain unchanged,

never able to grow

this fear driving our controlled sides

we're pushing everything away

that could potentially

save us, we don't know what we're

killing

we just keep wheeling down the

same old rut

policing each other, socializing,

stuck here like the children,

like the fucking kids we are..