The fountain was off.
This is the first time
I've been back to the city in months.
I'm trying to hold it together
But irony's found cracks in the foundation.

And you know, I tried so hard to be some great white hope
But I can't shake the feeling that
Tonight I'm gonna end up shaking in bed alone.

I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f*cked up kid.
I had to take my own advice and I did.
Now I'm waiting for it to sink in.
Expect me standing tall, back against the wall,
Cause what I learned was it's not about forcing happiness;
It's about not letting sadness win.

I don't have roses in the closet
But I've got pictures in a drawer
And it's everything left in me
Not to stare at them anymore.

I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f*cked up kid.
I had to take my own advice and I did.
Now I'm waiting for it to sink in.
Expect me standing tall, back against the wall,
Cause what I learned was it's not about forcing happiness;
It's about not letting sadness win.

I don't have roses in the closet
But I've got pictures in a drawer
And it's everything left in me
Not to stare at them anymore.
I walked upstairs and shaved my beard.
I felt like I was holding sadness here.

I'm not a self-help book; I'm just a f*cked up kid. [x4]