This is not what I wanted to be
I'm worried you'll eat at the insides of me
Paranoid of what's around
Blacking out at every sound
Reaching out I need to feel
Need to grasp what is real

So why is this me
Who am I suppose to be
Not inside my shell
Not inside this rotting hell

I've lost who I use to be
I'm scared because I don't even know me
Searching for something
Always I feel nothing
I can't believe how numb I've grown

Why is this me
Who am I suppose to be
Not inside my shell
Not inside this rotting hell

So if I cry out in my sleep bury me
God I give to you my soul to keep
And if I open my eyes to see the morning light
Lay me down and take me in the night
I don't want to see the coming day
Not with myself stuck in this way
I want nothing more than to die
Because with broken wings I'll never fly