The shock of it all was almost unreal
It felt like a needle it cut like a knife
Ripping through the fiber and the ashes of my life
So now I taste the saline and the drops of adrenaline
I guess you said forever when you should have said four months
Is this what you really wanted?

I don't want to care about you
But I'm better off dead without you
And no one knows what I don't want to say
Everything that you did was exactly what you wanted
And I'm left here where half of me remains

Now I've gotten good at having no feelings
With all of the dealings in my life
I should have know naivaty would always have its price
I built this wall around us that you blew up from inside
The mutineered captain of this shell I call my life
I just can't wrap my head around it.

I don't want to care about you
But I'm better off dead without you
I only know that I don't wanna play
Everything that you did was
Exactly what you wanted
I'm singing over your out of tune parade

You ripped my insides out and left me all exposed
So I'll sew it up and smile so no one knows
God forbid that people see
Exactly what you've done to me or
Exactly who you are inside

I don't want to care about you
But I'm better off dead without you
She could have said
"It's only for one day"
Everything that you did was
Exactly what you wanted
I'm peeking out from behind the shades

And I hate that it's not you
But I don't give a f*ck about you
Or anything that anybody says
You've left me so haunted
Is that what you really wanted
And I'll be here with nothing left to say
So I'll take these pills to make it go away
I'll be here but never quite the same