Staring off into space smoking more than I should
Staying out of the race hiding from the neighbourhood
Looking out through the cracks catching glimpses of life
I touch the past when I look back like it's the edge of a knife

Playing to the crowd of one as I cuss my demons out
For the things that I have done to put my future in doubt
Feeling poison eat me up from the fun I thought I had
Before I knew that lady luck could turn stark raving mad

And I'd give anything for twenty years ago
And what I knew today about saying no
I'd give anything for twenty years ago
I'd never live the dreams that made this nightmare grow

Hardly leaving this place once a month for the news
That I shouldn't have much faith and my bill is overdue
My phone rings every now and then but I never pick it up
Don't want to talk to old friends who are up on their luck